Is this so hard?

Dunno why ...
Recently I kinda feel like wanna find a bf ...
But I dun wan 2 play de ...
I want a real relationship, the one-shot kind till marriage ones ...
But this seems impossible for now ...

I want a guy who can protect me from everything ...
A guy who would not let me down everytime, nor would he make me sad ...
A guy who can give me all the attention I've wanted all along ...
A guy who never abandon me when I'm lonely ...
Nor would he forget me ...

Is all this that hard to get???
Why ... would I never got anything I want in my life?
It's so pathetic ...
I'm so lonely that I wanna cry now ... T^T