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27 January 2010

Troubles that I can't tell ...

I'm scared ...
I wanted to contact u but I dun hav the courage to ...
Lately, u seemed so distant ... so unlike you ...
I dunno what to do ...
I thought, maybe it'll be better if I stop bothering u ...
You'd probably think I annoy u much ... I dunno ...
So I stop texting u ...
I had wished, hoped that u could text me instead of the other way round ...
But no reply came from u ...

I've been convincing myself that u are busy ...
I told myself not to held my hopes high ...
I'd tried every way I can to forget u ...
But it seems that I've failed ...
Everytime ... I'll be wondering ...
What are u doing now? Are u busy? Or are u sick?
I can't stop myself to do so ...
Texting u had been one of my daily routine now ...

Sometimes I juz wished that I didn't talked to u on that day ...
The day where everything had started ...
I noe that I won't be able to pull myself out from it once I'd started something ...
And that was true ...
I wished I could stop everything rite now ...
I wanna hide in a corner, and never face u or the world anymore ...
Or can I juz bang my head on the wall, like I used to say?

Seeing u n ur group of frenz makes me feel ... alone.
Why can't I hav a group of frenz too like u do?
Why I can't be like everyone, having frenz that have the same interest together?
Instead, I was left out every time they talked, juz because I 'have different taste in music' ...
"Why are u singing Korean songs as u dun even understand the lyrics? If the Koreans heard u they'd probably laughed at u ..."
"If u say anything bout Koreans again I promise I'll smack ur head someday."
I dunno why would they say so ... It hurts u know ...

I juz envied my sis ...
Though she'd juz enroll in skul, she'd already made some frenz that has the same interest as her ...
I really really dun understand life ...
All I'd gained from life is juz betrayal, heartbreakings n insulting ...
What's the point?

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